February 17, 2012

Putting it out there

Posted in Journal tagged , , at 11:24 pm by Jenn

Miscarriage.  There, I said it.

A little over a month ago, Scott and I went to our appointment with the Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE), ready to see our baby’s heartbeat…we left devastated.  “This looks like a miscarriage”.  Those are the last words we expected to hear especially after beating all odds and becoming pregnant in the first place (with the help of IUI).

We took the news in stride and went on with our day to day lives.  “Waiting for nature to take it’s course”.  A week later when nothing had happened we went back to the doctor for another ultrasound.  No change.  Still no heartbeat.  Again we were devastated but ready to move on.  We scheduled the D&C for the next day.

The RE was very optimistic.  “Call me at the beginning of your next cycle and we’ll try again”.  At that time I was game.  Now, a little over a month later, after the physical and mental pain that we’ve decided that we won’t try again.  That doesn’t mean that we don’t want to start a family.  That means that we’ve decided we want to be parents, and we are ready to adopt.

For those of you who have adopted, I am anxious to hear your story.  For those of you who have considered adoption I want to hear your story, and for those of you who have suffered the loss of a child…I feel your pain.

We’ve got a long stress filled road ahead of us, but this is a journey that we are ready to take…at last.