February 17, 2012

Putting it out there

Posted in Journal tagged , , at 11:24 pm by Jenn

Miscarriage.  There, I said it.

A little over a month ago, Scott and I went to our appointment with the Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE), ready to see our baby’s heartbeat…we left devastated.  “This looks like a miscarriage”.  Those are the last words we expected to hear especially after beating all odds and becoming pregnant in the first place (with the help of IUI).

We took the news in stride and went on with our day to day lives.  “Waiting for nature to take it’s course”.  A week later when nothing had happened we went back to the doctor for another ultrasound.  No change.  Still no heartbeat.  Again we were devastated but ready to move on.  We scheduled the D&C for the next day.

The RE was very optimistic.  “Call me at the beginning of your next cycle and we’ll try again”.  At that time I was game.  Now, a little over a month later, after the physical and mental pain that we’ve decided that we won’t try again.  That doesn’t mean that we don’t want to start a family.  That means that we’ve decided we want to be parents, and we are ready to adopt.

For those of you who have adopted, I am anxious to hear your story.  For those of you who have considered adoption I want to hear your story, and for those of you who have suffered the loss of a child…I feel your pain.

We’ve got a long stress filled road ahead of us, but this is a journey that we are ready to take…at last.

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6 Comments »

  1. Kirsten Frank said,

    Jenn, so sorry for your loss. I too have had a miscarriage and it is completely devastating. Thanks for sharing your story and your strength and bravery. Praying for your family and your journey into parenthood.

    Thanks so much Kirsten!

  2. Nomads By Nature said,

    Hugs and prayers of comfort. It sounds like you are in a good place – sorry the journey has been so bumpy. Wishing you all the best as you start on the adoption road and bless a child that will be fortunate to become part of your family.

    What we’ve learned is that even the best roads have bumps! We are ready to travel this new road. Thank you for the kind words.

  3. Jolene said,

    Jenn, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I had a miscarriage in Oct and it was horribly sad.
    I wish you much much luck as you take the next steps in adding to your family.
    Hugs.

    Jolene, Sending hugs your way. Thanks for the well wishes!

  4. Jenn and Scott, I am so sorry to hear this is what you’ve been going through. Just know we’re thinking about you 🙂

    We love all the positive energy and support!

  5. Dina said,

    Oh Jen, I am so sorry for your loss but I’m happy you are moving on to adoption. There’s an unwanted, homeless child somewhere who will be blessed to join your family. Good luck on your journey.

    Thank you Dina. We will be so honored to receive this gift one day soon!

  6. Laide said,

    Jenn and Scott, sorry to hear of your loss. My prayer is that God will bless you with the little bundle(s) of joy that you seek. As we know, God hears and answers for he is a God of miracles!

    We need lots of prayers Laide! Thank you!


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